I admit it - I deleted almost half this post. It was angry, discouraged and frustrated. And, then, I remembered that this is not a private blog. It's not my outlet, unfortunately. People will read this and will remember what I've written. I am seriously censoring myself. So, here's a quick run-down - the prettier version:
So, I'd been trying to decide - do I hang up my Doula Bag for good? Should I bother with trying to certify at all (my deadline is in May, I still need 2 births and I've only done 3 in the last 2 years...tick, tock, tick, tock)?
And then, a mother asked me to be her doula. She was due in 2 days! That quickly fell through since the hospital has a 2 person limit and she had to choose between me or her own mother. Still, it was a glimmer of hope. Maybe there is some interest.
And so, I'm going to trudge on. No matter what the present mindset is amongst women in this area, truth is truth. Birth matters. Doulas make a difference. It can be better. If I can't go from A to B, then I'll detour to all the letters I can think of.